As the year comes to a close, I would like to review 2017 about my art, and what you should expect for 2018. Be prepared, this is rather whiny…
2017 IN REVIEW
After ten years trying to turn my art into a paying career, I’ve decided to give up and just focus on creating comics, which is more of a hobby than anything at this point due to lack of comic conventions in the Midwest. I’m happy that my mixed media digital abstract art made it into a handful of galleries around the country, but my work never went beyond a tepid curiosity with people, in person or online.
I’ve been depressed about this for a while, but I’m finally addressing the 900 pound gorilla in the room and accepting that I failed at it. (I HATE admitting that.) There’s nothing louder than the sound of silence, and my work seems to always live in a void where I can’t even get a simple social media “like” for something I do, much less a sale.
I will also admit that I’ve been jealous and bitter of other artist friends who seem to sell their work without so much as lifting a finger and have huge support networks around them, when I can’t even sell a cheap print after great effort or get people to even acknowledge my existence. Deafening silence, I’m done.
I’m defeated but not giving up, just refocusing and circling the wagons.
All my life I’ve wanted to be an artist and sell my work as a living, but I’m accepting that dream will never be and I need to move on with my life, whatever the hell that will be. Sorry for the whining, but it’s taken me a long time to write this and an even longer time to admit it to myself. What you’re reading is the whiny-lite version, you should have seen the first draft.
WHAT WILL CHANGE FOR 2018…
I will still post new artwork (primarily comic updates, the long waited NORMLINGS 3) on social media and my website, but I’m going to take deliberate steps to avoid chasing “likes”, begging people to share it, or see how many people viewed a particular piece or website stats and all of that nonsense. This is the only way I can combat the silence, by ignoring it. I’m effectively putting my head in the sand.
I will also seriously consider turning my comics into ebooks. (edit: DONE!) I’ve been tremendously hesitant about it up to this point due to pirating and lack of proper security to prevent it, but now that I’m trying to let go of turning this into a paying career, I’m now at the “whatever” stage in this process.
If you’re reading this then you’re at least interested in what I do and I thank you for that. I’ve always tried to put a positive spin on things in relation to my art, but this has been something weighing on me for years now and I just need to let it go and try to heal from it. I’m disappointed I couldn’t pull it off, but at least I tried.