I’ve been in a really bad place inside my head as of late due to not finding a job that I’m qualified for (been applying for over a year now) and not being happy with life in general. I’m in a dark place right now. This is the first digital abstract I’ve created in about four years since all of my time was devoted to my two comics during that time span.
Someone posted a meme that said “God didn’t bring you this far to abandon you” and I’m clinging to that right now, because I truly feel like I’m being ignored and forgotten right now.
While you’re at it, look at the other digital abstract mixed media pieces I’ve made over the years HERE.
(7/13/15 EDIT)
I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has given me support over the last couple of days. Some people even came out of the woodwork to send messages of encouragement and it means a lot to me.
Over 9 years ago it was easy to make the transition to a stay at home dad while working part time freelance from home. The problem is “stay at home dad” no longer applies as my son is in school full time and I’m having a hard time being relevant again in the job market. I’ve been searching for a job for three years now, but only really hardcore for the past 6-12 months. My freelance work has for the most part dried up, so I’m having a very hard time transitioning into the next phase of my life, whatever that is. (What is a mid life crisis for $400 Alex?)
Although I’ve been an artist since the age of eight, around the time my son was born I had big dreams of making it as an artist. Things started out promising and I even managed to show my work in a couple of galleries, but as the years went on the more I realized that this dream will never come true. I had hoped selling my art and comics would be enough to turn it into a living but it hasn’t so I have to let that one go. In the end I focused too much on trying to make money from it instead of just creating art for arts sake.
I realized that I made a lot of poor decisions from 18-25 years old that are now biting me in the butt some years later. I am in this position because of those poor choices, and I can’t be angry at anyone other than myself. Your continued prayers are still greatly appreciated as I muddle through this. Thanks for reading this. Hopefully something goes my way soon.